Commiting To Decide, Deciding to Commit

I have so many things I want to change about myself; being better at some things, getting rid of some bad habits, etc. I am horrible at getting started. Then I expect change to take place and see results immediately. When that doesn't happen, I get frustrated and quit. I hate failure. I am scared of failure. So to remedy that, I don't commit to do anything. It's like I say to myself, Ok, I am going to try xyz. I'm not going to set goals or get really serious about it. That way when I dont accomplish xyz, I won't feel as bad.

I need to get to the root of this. Why am I like this? How can I fix it? I want so badly to change certain things. Maybe I don't want it badly enough tho. Maybe I don't surround myself with the right types of people.

So here I sit. Trying to commit to making a decsion. Trying to decide to make a commitment.